I did said to myself, if my eldest sister succeed with her MB BS; Bachelor in Medicine and Surgery, I’ll absolutely vanish all my dark emotion and be a very happy person immediately. Unfortunately, until right now, I still feel the emptiness. It’s hard to explain, but everything seems to illustrate my wants and needs deficiency. It’s sad how we witness all those list are either expired or permanently untainable. In life you chase uncountable dreams, but at the end of the route you’ll find two doors: You gain it or You lost it. Those who quit will failed, but those who still fight for their dreams will still carries hope on their shoulders. And for me, I still keep my dream on and on.. I failed most of the times and frankly it did brought me to the ground. I rise sooner or later and I still keep chasing and creating new dreams because I’m a dreamer.
“I’m a dreamer, but will my dream come true?”
For few minutes, when you started to dream about something, it give you a boost of energy to think for it and to be ambitious about it. During those time the adrenaline are still pumping in your blood vessels to act as a motivation to pursue your dreams. Planing your dreams is not the only thing that can make it come true. Considerations of other factors which involved in your dream such as money, time and people who surround to make your dream happens are also empowered our dream. Therefore being a dreamer is not everything, but trying to make your dream come true is the real ingredient.
It’s true: “If we don’t have our dreams, we have nothing.”
The feeling of my emptiness is the feeling of having nothing due to my unreachable dreams. It’s a feeling of incomplete if your can’t have what you want; and its a feeling of dieing if you can’t have what you need. And humanity is not the only one who’s feelings this; all living things have this kind of ‘feelings’ that categories it as a living species. Therefore, it is wise if you don’t fight yourself to stop dreaming. Some say over dreaming can be a dangerous thing, it can make you go c-r-a-z-y~; and yes we do experience some people going nuts for their ultimate failure and eventually went to a suicide process. But be a healthy dreamer, plan it wisely, if you failed once, try it again. If it also failed, then it time to give room to a new dream for you to achieve.
“If you can’t appreciate the dream yet, appreciate the journey now.”
They say, the journey is whats counts not the destination and also, the journey is the one that defines the destination. Both are my favourite quotes. As you all know by now, we can’t have all the dreams in hands. But trying to accomplish those dreams, from the beginning towards the result; its something more meaningful than what your dreaming about .It proves yourselves how you had work hard along the journey and failing your dream doesn’t put you into a failure box, but it places you with those who had work hard for their living too. Yet, we must remember, the journey itself will help us to define our journey, and we can’t take the journey for granted. -end-
A room in the Bodleian Library, Oxford University where graduands change into their new gowns and hoods part of the way through the graduation ceremony. You might recognise this room from, amongst other films, “The Madness of King George” and even “Harry Potter”! Bodleian Library is attached with Divinity School building of Oxford University.
Right now, I’m feeling bless that all my eldest siblings succeed with their educations. Here’s the summaries of my siblings success:
1) Tini: Bachelor (Hons) in Biomedical : Dec, 2004 (Queensland University, Australia)
2) Wafi: Bachelor (Hons) in Mechanical Engineering : July, 2008 (Newcastle University formerly known as Newcastle Upon Tyne University, United Kingdom)
3) Tiwi: BA (Hons) Primary Education : Oct, 2008 (Universiti Brunei Darussalam, Brunei)
4) Tini: MBBS a.k.a Bachelor of Medicine and Surgery (Hons) : Dec, 2008 (Queensland University, Australia)
InsyaAllah:
5) Walid: Diploma in Primary Education 2009? YES, AMIN to get graduated for the fifth times in my family!
6) Wafi: Master in Mechanical Engineering 2009?
Talking about dream earlier, I wish to pursue to becoming a Professional Counseling Educator at school because I DREAM of it, OR a Physical Education Teacher as I did VERY WELL during my elective course last semester :P But then again, its just a dream, I might just enjoyed what I have for now. But do wishes for an opportunity for my dream to come true and hopefully I pass my Diploma. Amin
