Alid Misli

It’s really sad to received a new email from Griefswald International Student festival (GrIStuF). Haven’t mention this yet, the request of scholarship for me to attend for it was not successful. I wish it did, as I really want it badly because of the fact that it’s a one life chance too. Although this is a unique festival, that I can actually gain from it personal, but also a matter a fact that I could help one way or another to bond Bruneians undergraduate with Germany as one role of young diplomatic relationship to strengthen both country Brunei and Germany.

Early this year too, I had imagine how its like to go front to The Republic Federal of Germany in Brunei Darussalam located at Yayasan building to get consultations for my trip to reach Griefwalds. As we all know, imagine is a part of dream too that we know as well dream can’t always be true.

My point here is, although I didn’t make it to what I have expect to get, but from day one witnessing the advert found at my campus, and the immediate visit to their website, I was filled with excitement and adrenaline. Catching up with this opportunity magnificently a wish to fulfilled since I was in high school to be able to participates in any of international Student Exchange program.

The best part was being invited, but writing the personal statement (essay) to ‘sell yourself’ (idioms), to introduce yourself that I’m eligible and ‘I want to be invited’ was a great moment too. My P.S. was to convince them that I’m somewhat undergraduate who have very interested to join in with the the two chosen topics that I wish to discuss (Wants Vs Needs and Theater Performance). The inquiry visit to Student Union Building, about this matter too was a great moment, as I met this great HEP’s Assistant Register to accommodate my interest to plead for scholarship from my institutions. She suggested for me to get a support from my faculty and I have chosen my lecturer who tend to be the 2nd Deputy Dean of SHBIE. And writing the letter to her was a great experience, it was a long letter too; included was my personal statement, the expenses I wish to cover and get, and also the beneficial of what will I gain personally, to my university and also to my country Brunei Darussalam.

Since then, I can only pray for what I wish to gain in the future. For my close friends, I did share this with my whining how I love to be part of it. And now G give consent to them how it turn out to be, and I’m positively sure that they will understand me and ‘heart’ me too for this result.

I’m not searching for fault here, as to blame myself for not writing a very fascinating appeal letter, or my institution is not granting my wishes and the chances I’m getting, or blame my family especially to my parents to afford the trip, or the creator not to give me charm on this. But idealistic, I guess the scholarship that I want to get as for the funds that I want are very expensive indeed, for me to enjoy it solely. With that I rest myself and let it go, as I have to admit, I don’t have the luck to received it and I’m out of options from whom and where I should plead this case next. Although I wish and wish it could have been a good news, but ambition, dreams and hope can only goes well or goes unsatisfied.

I say Thank you for those officers (Admin meeting committee) who had looked and involved on my consideration, and I also I would like to thank GrIStuf for the opportunity for me to gain the experience (going through the letter to my institution).

As we all like to conclude, this such tragedy is by saying “God have better plans for me” and “At least I’d tried“. Cheers!